The Third Chapter

I am currently 34 years old.

Turning 30 was not a problem for me. I was excited about it.

But as I get closer to 35, which will officially hit me in the face on August 15, I find myself becoming increasingly aware of time.

To be honest, time had been kind of freaking me out a little bit.

After all, we only get so much time.

What if I’m running out? What if I should have done more or accomplished more by now? What if I don’t get to do all the things I want to do?

To top that all off, I went to a psychic last week. She hit the nail on the head on several things, so I think she was pretty legit. Then, she told me I’m running the risk of being single for the rest of my life.

The sad part was that I was kind of okay with that. I was married for ten years, and was in no rush to be in a relationship again. The very thought of it was pretty scary. But what if that fear is holding me back?

Apparently, it is. The psychic lady said that I need to learn to be vulnerable. I guess there is some great dude waiting for me. We’ll see about that…  It’s a work in progress, okay .. I’m warming up to the idea of it. 

So, the idea of time slipping away – and the thoughts that maybe I’m somehow effing up my future happiness have been on my mind.

But then, earlier today, after I got home from the store and was putting stuff away, I realized that it was exactly half my life ago that I graduated from high school.

It kind of made me think about chapters in a book. If my life until graduation was one chapter, and then graduation until now was the second chapter, then that means I’m simply getting ready to start a new chapter.

And if that’s the case, turning 35 won’t be so bad. It’s just a new chapter. The third chapter.

I mean, what if something really awesome is going to happen? The first two chapters of a book are usually just the introductory stuff, anyway. The stuff that sets up the story. And then, the action really starts in the third chapter.

So, in that regard, I’m now kind of EXCITED to turn 35.

I think I’m ready to find out what’s headed my way….